Bitter? Petty? Selfish?

Yes,Yes, and Yes.

I'll admit those three things before I even so start into this rant.


Brad's sister is not roughly 5 months pregnant. While I was excited she was the situation soon turned into feeling pitty for the child she is pregnant with along with her 4 year old.

Shes almost 28 and doesn't need one child yet alone two. To this day she still smokes cigaretts AND weed AND AGAIN SHES 5 MONTHS PREGNANT.

She lives with Brad's momma. And has since she left her husband. Oh yea..shes still married and pregnant by another man. Who is a whopping whole 6 months older than me. I'm 22 almost 23.

She has a college degree but refuses to work in that field and has decided that waiting tables at two restaurants is better.

She can't even afford to get her own place yet alone keep up her car payment.

And her baby daddy..

Well, he's a cook at one of the said restaurants where she works..

They've been together roughly since maybe April.

He's got a son he never sees who is Brayden's age.

Didn't graduate high school.

Used to be a coke dealer.

Oh yea and hes got no where to live and isn't allowed to live with Brad's sister in her parents house so where does he sleep at night? Outside of Brad's parent's house in her car.



Yea so why am I bitter, petty and selfish?

Shes having a girl. Her second and none deserving of. I'm pissed because this little girl who deserves so much better..will ultimately trump my two children in the love that Brad's mom gives them.

She showers Brad's niece will more gifts than I've ever gotten in my life while my children just get a few things. She feels bad because "she has no father" UM YEA SHE DOES...HE LIVES IN HUNTSVILLE AND IS DOING RATHER WELL FOR HIMSELF DESPITE STILL BEING MARRIED TO BRADS SISTER.

I prayed so hard for it to be a boy simply because she doesn't want a boy.

SHES STILL BLOODY MARRIED! She doesn't want to do better for her children obviously by working these jobs and not using her degree which her parents help pay for.

Now I'm all for state assistance because without WIC we would have been broke with Brayden and now we have it for Aslynn as well as Medicaid for her as backup insurance.

But don't flipping abuse it. Milking more foodstamp money out only to have them find out...hahah.

And yet my deserving sister can't manage to get pregnant but this heifer can with no regrets.

Happy 3 months little girl!

Honestly were has the time gone since Aslynn was born?? I still can't believe that shes here after months of moaning and groaning because I honestly didn't think that my belly could get any bigger than it already was.

Miss me?

So for the past week I've been MIA in blogger-world. I've been babysitting a 9 year old. Brads parents went out of town early Wednesday morning leaving Max behind because of school. So that supposed left Brad's 28 year old sister who is living there in charge of Max....bwahahahahahahahaha RIGHT.

I have seen her a total of maybe 2 hours since Wed. So that leaves Brad and I and our two kids over at Toni's watching Max until Leslie leisurely decides to come home from work with her baby daddy v2. Which ultimately means that Brayden doesn't go to bed until about 1030 or 11. Which is an hour or two after his normal bedtime. Might I add that I had to be there when Max got off the school bus around 315...right in the MIDDLE of Braydens nap. So ultimately he's only been sleeping an hour at Toni's compared to the 3-4 he usually does. Aslynn hasn't been affected by this at all thankfully.

Oh and I have to be over there by 4 this evening so she can "go to work" hmmm last I knew she didn't have to work tonight...hmm.

It wouldn't irritate me much if she hadn't taken the money that Toni left for us to feed Max with and ran. Yup so with what little money we dont have we've had to buy food to cook at their house because there is never anything to make a complete meal in that house.

End Rant.

Poop?

Never in my almost 23 years of existence did I imagine that I would wake up in the morning to not only my son jabbering away but to find him diaperless and to be covered in poop. Thats what I woke up to this morning. He proceeded to take off his pants and diaper and THEN poop on his bed. How do I know that he didn't do it in his diaper after he pooped in it? Well for the simple fact that it looked like there was this massive explosion on just one spot of his sheet. Both his crib and him were covered. Ugh, blech.

Ten on Tuesday

1) It's been almost 3 months since I've seen dad. It doesn't seem like it but its been that long because Aslynn is almost 3 months old.

2) Ahh Aslynn is almost 3 months old. Seriously where has the time gone? I'd like to say that I've adjusted to having 2 under 2 but that would be a lie. I really haven't gotten a smooth routine down except for while Brayden naps.

3) I'm in the market for a spare pack n play for when Brayden sleeps somewhere else other than here. Yesterday we moved Aslynn into the one we had because she was just getting too long to stay comfy in the bassinett. If you know of one let me know, I'm keeping a watchful eye on Craigslist in hopes that I'll find a good deal.

4) I'm ready to cut some wires on my neighbors stereo. Seriously if its loud enough that I can hear it in my bedroom which is two rooms from their living room then its too loud. Hell my pictures rattle on my wall. I had to yet again today to go tell them to please turn it down...good grief it was hell enough getting Aslynn to sleep at that point.

5) B.B. King is coming to town on the 21st and I really want to go. Brad wants to go as well but we don't know if it will be financially wise to do so but on the other hand we havent really been out just the two of us in God knows how long. We are still talking about it.

6) Momma has joined the world of Facebook and she is addicted to the Apps on there that its too cute.

7) Brayden is working on 4 teeth, two of which are his top molars. So when these 4 bad boys come in he will have 6 on the top and 2 on the bottom. Poor kid I hope it isn't 6 months before the next one comes in.

8) Brayden said "stop" yesterday when I was picking on him...hmm too bad for him I didn't.

9) Next week I am going to order his halloween costume. He is going to be a dragon and it is the cutest little outfit. I still have no idea on what to dress Aslynn as. Last year Brayden went as a little devil. hmm...I'm sure I will come up with something that will suit her in all her princess glory.

10) I'm itching to cook again. Like cook cook. Don't ask...lol.

Les Rizieres

I've decided that on Wednesdays of each week I'm going to blog about a favorite place I've been or stayed and hope and dream to one day go back. Today I've chosen a hotel by the name of Les Rizieres. It's located in Les Saintes Maries de la Mer, Provence France. Its absolutely beautiful and serene. Its located just south of Arles and Nimes and the famous Pont du Gard aqueduct.

I went there in 2000 when I went with a bunch of classmates and teachers from middle school. There are only 27 rooms and they are all close by on one level. It is hard to put into words how beautiful this place is. By looking online I have found that they have since remodeled all the rooms and everything.

Great American Seafood Cook off!

Coming up in November is the Great American Seafood Cook off in New Orleans and I'm really excited. I am a serious seafood lover. During the cook off 5 chefs will create their masterpiece for a slew of judges only to have one chosen. You should really head over to www.greatamericanseafoodcookoff.com website and pick your favorite recipe out of the five.

My personal fav. out of them is Louisiana native Chef Brian Landry's Shrimp and Andouille Cassoulet. Now I am no culinary great by any means but to me the mix of shrimp, andouille sausage and beer are a great combo. I mean c'mon beer in a top notch recipe, I'm still getting a kick out of that. Not only does that appeal to me but the use of spices. Now I am a serious spice user, no doubt about it. I love love love them!

My dream place to live would be Massachusetts. I would love to be able to wake up early in the morning and go pick out fresh fish and seafood. To me it just tastes so much better and I think it would be easier to cook with then what you buy at the store that might sit there for a few days. As strange as this may sound I dream about the day that I can get a fresh salmon or trout and filet it.

What can I say, I'm a girl not only obsessed with cooking but seafood. I'd cook with it everyday if I could :)

All of my faithful readers that you are you need to hop on over to the Great American Seafood Cook off website and pick your favorite recipe out of the five and vote in the cook off!

I love this picture

This picture just makes me smile. I wish I had one of Brayden like this when he was that little.

Ten on Tuesday

1) Why is it that when men get sick its like they are dying?? Brad is sick and I just want to tunk him on the head for acting the way he is...oh well the ogre is asleep right now during MY nap time.

2) Speaking of Brad being home he is now on 3rd shift which completely ruined my little schedule I had. ugh. Hence why I'm not napping. Now I have to cook two meals for him? Uhh no fix it your own self.

3) I'm a little bitter about the whole 3rd shift thing. I preferred it when he was on 2nds because I could enjoy time by myself during the day.

4) I'm exhausted. Luckily Aslynn has started sleeping atleast from 11/12ish-5ish. Kudos girlfriend. Brad is no help what so ever for the most part even after asking him and snide remarks under my breath. Nothing new but hell I thought maybe this whole 3rd shift thing would work in my favor...bawahahaha I was smoking crack obviously.

5) Brayden can now when he wants to give kisses and snuggles and says "Dood it" for I believe "I did it"

Ya know what.. I'm too tired mentally to type 5 more things so 5 will just have to do.